by Ervis A.K.A. RagingGamer
My name is Ervis. Known as RagingGamer on You Tube. I have been playing games since I was 12-13 years old. Nearly 20 years now on daily basis. And I have played thousands of them, I like to claim over 9000, but its more like close to 8000. What do games mean to me? Games to me are not only a form of entertainment or escape from the cruel reality that is my personal daily life. But they have been my teacher in life, in times where I needed a friend, and someone or something to relate to.
Simply so I could be able to tell myself you see things do get better, you will catch a break you will survive, you will make it. Just like that protagonist in that game did. I say protagonist now because I am old enough to understand what it means, at the time I was 13 with very little knowledge in English, which came from the games I played. And that protagonist was what kept me going, what gave me courage daily to get up, go to work and always remind myself that I am simply just another character in a very big game called life.
I saw those characters as a distant light in the darkness surrounding my troubled teenage years. Games gave me the opportunity to find a place in this world, I left my country at a very young age due to some very troubling times. Civil war in the early 90’s in Albania where I am from, drove us out of the country, lost my home for good, and have yet to feel at home ever since.
20 years now and still counting. But you know something? every time I play a game, it reminds me of home, because they remind me how I made it through life day by day, struggling and trying to do the best that I could, based on things that I learned from those very same games you claim make me evil.
Thanks to games I learned things I would have never been able 2 through the education system, since in my case there was none! I was in a strange country that was very hostile to my kind. I knew I had to get out and find a better place, I learned English so well from having played RPG’s that I was able to get real jobs, get real pay at last.
And once I did that, I was able to buy my ticket out of there and moved on to Canada. And guess what? games once again helped me secure another job, I worked as a game tester for awhile even, at Babel Media. Sure my English is not great, I am fully aware of that. But try learning my language from games alone, and them come talk to me.
Through games I learned how to distinguish good, from bad, and right from wrong. My parents were too busy working 3 jobs with 3 kids left home alone, me being the only so called adult. 2 sisters younger than myself, do you know how I kept em calm and stopped em from crying? we played games… yes those very same evil games that make me do so many bad things. We played games for hours, and we even learned how to speak the language of the country we were in at the time.
Through games I met the only person I truly fell in love with for the first time in my life, ironically the game was called Perfect World. She was a (Polish) Fox in the game, and we were 3000 miles+ apart if not more, games brought us together. Games gave me the chance to meet that person, get together and live some of the happiest years of my life. I’ve never had much luck in life itself, always had to be on the look for a new place to call home due to personal reasons. But the one place I always found peace and felt welcomed was amongst gamers, they didn’t care who I was, what the colour of my skin was, what my sexual preferences were, where I came from or what I did for a living. All they cared about was me being a part of that EQ, FFXI, WoW, FFARR Party! these are just a few of the 100’s of MMO’s I have played and I have made friends from all over the world, some I have known for as long as I have lived in Canada. We talk on a nearly daily basis over Skype, team speak, or any other voice chat we can think of.
I call these people friends with the full meaning of the word. They are the best friends a man can ask for, some have even helped me through some very difficult personal hardships I faced in life. When i learned about #GamerGate the first thing that came to mind was the oppression I had felt in person being used on them. I knew it was time to stand up to it and say enough, I was young then and I had no control over what my parent’s deemed right for us or wrong.
I am an adult now and I will not run away from this, not now not ever. I will stand along side my fellow Gamers, people who have come from all walks of life, who’ve set apart their differences and preferences in games, and platforms of choice. To stand under one banner and say this stops here.
We are not criminals, we are not terrorists, we are people just like you. And we will no longer tolerate being bullied for being passionate about our hobbies. This is the path we’ve chosen in life, if you don’t like it there are many like it, take another because this one is ours!
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